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lol..criusly..i dunno how 2 post titles..

anyways..still same day (28th March 2008)..went out at night with her..at the beginning i was pmsing abt the same issue where she ffk me for muvee coz she follow frens out though she promised me 1st..anyways..i cant stay mad at her..coz deep in me is a guy who reali adores her..she noes she will alwiz be forgiven..but i hope she noes how not to take advantage of it..

anyways went makan sushi king..then go jalan jalan then onli notice..me no $$$ adi..need go press lor..takpe..went ATM machine side by side wan..waited damn long in da queue then one turn before me..ATM OUT OF SERVICE..ok takpe..went next wan with the same indian lady in front of me..then when her turn again TAK ADA SERVICE AGAIN..haha god giving her hint dont shop so much wuekekeke..then end up went to the new wing ATM..withdrew some $$$..then went buy earing..its a squarish earring with the bling bling la..rm15..she pick wan so i ambik..

then sent her home..on the way home had some heart to heart conversation with brought me both sadness and happiness..both anyways..if ur reading..listen to this line from leona lewis's bleeding love - ' i don't care what they say,i'm in love with you'..yeah remember that..okies..sent her home then went AC..picked up michie wong yang sedang ber-flu..kakakak dont sound like flu oso..then foos lor..and yeah!!..my snake come back adi..pull push middle up down left right top below sumer boleh snake..played with mostly michie's fren and jack+ jack's fren (jack is monash mate =) )..then played in the end with jojeeko's bro (joco) and his fren (jess)..gd game peeps..

anyways im home now..done showering..not done bz stats and mngment..and done living..wanna go jump floor now considering the amount of work that needs to be done..and working this sunday fuk fuk fuk..mane aku punyer masa??!!..

cheers peeps..im not emo anymore!!

Sighs..

yeah my titile pretty much tells wuts this post about..emo blog yeah

anyways..im so emo right now wei..i mean it was a promise that we will c each other for dinner and then a muvee..then she come and tell me now muvee cannot coz her frens bla bla bla..i mean..wut am i..i think im juz like an inferior good..for those who took econs yeah when income goes up demand goes down..2 weeks din c her adi wei..when she said we can go out this week i was waking up in the morning with a brighter sun and a fresher adi..now im in the cold afternoon breathing stale air cond air coz everything around me now is juz like a pile of crap straight from the bull..yeah im living in bullshit..im living in a lie that i refuse reality..

y izzit that im alwiz the victim?..why do i alwiz have to post an emo post?..its not like we never talked abt it before..all she can say is sorry..one corrective action is worth a thousand sorries..u can say sorry time and time again but still..it will hurt again tau..its so routine..break me..fix me..break me again..fix again..i mean..am i in the wrong for not calling u out and then u keep saying ur bz?..i mean wut bz with anyways..so hard to find one day in a week?..okay is my fault then for calling u out at the wrong timing time and time again..coz im alwiz asking u out at the time ur frens asked u out..which never once u chose me as the option..i mean its not like im stopping u from seeing ur frens coz that is juz plain dumb..in fact..there were never once that i said i stopped u from going out with ur frens..but its juz that time and time again that i tolerated saying nex time u will go noe how i feel..but seems like its not reali working out huh..

im sorry if u have to read this post coz definitely u noe who u are..its not hard to tell yeah..

those who u noe is not u..well..good to noe..its CNN material..

Boredom!

hello again me ppl readeeng thy blog

before i start writing up..scream 1st..FUKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..okay that was for my management assignment..one more time..SHYTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..that was for my biz stats..okay can start..

thursday thursday..mana tau sudah 4 days passed adi..damn holidays damn short la..time passing so fast..actually quite slow but i delay delay delay now due date coming no time liao then evrything like not enuff time..plus this sunday i got one event to do..nvm!!..get the $$$ for something special..

anyways im halfway thru my management assignment and i am very bored doing it adi..so might as well update my blog since i so long din update..since JOJEE wans me to update so much muahahaha..

actually i wanted to update on wednesday night wan coz i expected to have those joanna dinner pix mah..mana tau itu teng teng tak ada charge itu kamera itu battery habis takde transfer masuk ke dalam thumbdrive..aiyo teng teng now u make me look like im lazy to update blog T_T..anyways once i get those pix ill update it real soon yeah and tell u guys wut happened at the dinner..

her bday is coming up..im still planning la..shyt..i think im the most dungu guy in da world..but im doing all my best to make sure that shes happie that day..nuthin else realli matters when i can c smiling face that just lights me up..i noe its worthed juz to c her happy..

anyways i wanna call her now adi..ok i update nex time yeah..ciao~~!!

Thing's Couldn't Get Any Worse

early morning in the monday 2.44 am so im gonna talk abt how screwed up my day and night were..

anyways..1st and foremost that bothering me is today during foosing smthing very terrible happened..i admit im in the fault but its a small matter that instigated it..damn..im talking abt michelle wong..we played doubles with 2 dudes and i was off form so i was pms-ing abt myself..for not playing well..i DIDN'T blame anyone except for me coz its juz stupid to blame other people..anyways michelle and i had some misunderstanding and she was pissed with me la..ok im sori michie..im sori that i showed that pms face but it was not abt u..its abt me..but still i think u oso terasa la coz if i were in ur position oso i can feel it..so i sincerely apologize..

back to the whole day..it was raining again the whole day..damn..gloomy gloomy time..everything was going so slowly and sluggish..i mean it kinda makes me moody in this type of condition la..then i went out lor at around 3pm and came back at like 6pm..gotta get ready for the big matches tonight(which im so so so so so pissed off abt)

Issue #1: MU's win over Liverpool
Me,michie,kim han,jo,thong siang and xian zhiong was at jafaar's sunway to watch this match..evrything was going quite unwell like the rain,the lousy shisha and also the main factor,MU's victory..seems like MU is gonna win the title again this year..i hate to say it..but it is Arsenal's own fault that they drew so many previous matches against smaller teams and drop so many points..

Issue #2: Arsenal's defeat by Chelsea
Sad to say,i wasnt reali watching the match as i was foosing and all..but when Sagna scored the goal it was ecstatic..until 72nd minute when Drogba scored a quality goal thru the defenders leg and clearly beating Almunia..1-1 (damn)..then here comes the shitty part..a long ball from the flank to drogba and he pushed the defender away..i mean clearly he was pushing the defender away with both hands..its a foul..but no..play on..credit for the body balance and how he took the half volley in..but in reality it was a foul before..but a goal is a goal..defeat accepted..2-1 defeat to Arsenal and dropping to 3rd spot(fuk!)

Issue #3: Michelle vs Tee Yew
(read introduction of this post)

Issue #4: Tee Yew vs Tee Suan
im talking abt my bro..smth reali fuked up happened la coz we argued over a small matter and we din talk for like..3 hrs?..then it was all good..still..i dun like the idea that im caught up in arguments..fuk that shyt..so issue #4,not much of an issue nemore coz its back to normal now..but still it WAS an issue for 3hrs

4 issues a day..enuff to kill me 2night before bed..juz hope that things will look better tomorrow..

to those who read this post..dun feel sad for me la(if u did)..it will be over in the matter of days..thx for reading though and have a nice day!

*cheers*

Why Music Matters so Much..

okay to start off with..just to let u peeps noe..no i DONT play any instruments but i sing most of the time..simply because i love music..songs..some how theres is an inncer serenity in all the songs i hear..it REALI effects me emotionally no matter wut song i listen to..

Seriously without music..i coulda been dead long time ago coz it makes me feel suicidal when im emoing..i noe its a bit of a drama queen to tell u that im emotionally disturbed at one point of my life..its somewhere between mid year till the end of 2005..yeah was 17 back then and i am effected easily by everyday's on goings and let me tell u..things werent looking up in 2005 and at that time im not that sorta person that likes showing my anger..i noe in rao's (wow good memories) everybody noes TIU as the guy who can simply rock a place up with my witty humor and sick perverted jokes..but the truth is when i reach home and before i sleep i stone for like hours thinking..what am i doing here?wuts the point of living?is there any goals in my life?wut abt my destiny?or destiny is just a word ppl make up to feel better for themsleves?..i mean millions of questions come to my mind..and i cant seem to find a strong supportive answers for all of those fuked up questions..

whenever all this happened..my songs in my computer comes to my rescue..whenever i feel sad i juz listen to sad songs to let out my feelings thru the lyrics i sing along to..if i didnt do that..i think it would like keep accumulating in my feelings and at one point i will juz explode like a time bomb..for an example.. Marilyn Manson's song made me unleash alot of my feelings of hate and misery..songs like suicide is painless,tainted love,antichrist superstar,beautiful people..esp beautiful people..coz at that time self-confidence is reali down in da dumps coz im fat(and still is but not that fat now)..it reali makes me feel so bad abt my impression towards people i meet evryday..so is beauty something that is made up from the community and makes us SEE things that the media wanted us to see?..and y discriminate the less appealing?..we ARE humans too and no matter how fat the thighs are or how skinny the hands are..the most important organ remains the same..im talking abt the heart..all of us wants to feel accepted..so why reject people?..how would u feel if u were in that sad being's position?

staind..OMG!!..songs like outside and so far away makes me scream along to the songs..heres the lyrics from Outside - Staind :

Cause I'm on the outside,
And I'm Looking in,
I can see thru you; see your thru colors,
Cos' inside you're ugly;you're ugly like me,
I can see thru u,
See thru the real you.

yeah i noe its emoing coz of the lyrics..but hey what can i say?troubled child who refuses to open up to his friends..this is wut u do..listen to songs and scream..again..its reali about the rejection i feel inside because of my lack of self-confidence..though other people already accepted me,i still feel rejected coz of my self confidence like im not good enuf for this,not good enuf for that..and rejection comes as a knockout blow when the girl u have a crush on avoids u..tell me how that feel buoys :p..like crap yeah!!..

But things changed later as i matured berkadar terus with my age and sooner i became the person i am today..FUK HOW THEY SEE ME..IM HAPPY WIHT MY SELF SO FUK OFF!!..hahahha and then yeah..im able to open up myself to people finally..thx to jo,adrian,ws,kj,kimhan,michie,su,wc,syazzy a whole lot more~!

college days were the time im opened up to reggae..i use to hang out with indah villa!!..woohoo yeah!!!tell u guys abt it that place is like 2nd home coz of the people inside da house..ali ateye,kelly,giorgi,lasha,amen,mobi,naseem,shakir..okay so i was messing around with ali's laptop and opened up this song called red red wine by UB40..man im hooked to that song for like a few days..then i downloaded songs from the legend himself..BOB MARLEY..man his songs..if his songs and lyrics are injected in people's vein..no need for guns,no need for wars,no need for discriminations,no need for all the crime that we have today..his words are too beautiful and makes me so happy whenever i listen to his songs..now im not being disrespectful or whatsoever..im not an african-american(black) so im in no position to tell u ive faced discrimination as badly as u guys did..but i feel rejected remember~~..this songs made me feel so carefree about the outside world where we are made to believe in things that are beautiful when we are supposed to..here's a list of fav bob's songs and description of wut i think abt the song:

Don't worry Be happy: man this song is all about living the life with no hustle and bustle..chilling!
No Woman Nuh Cry: The beauty of brotherhood and sisterhood
Is this Love: one song ill definitely sing to my bee coz its about unconditional love
One Love: im a big fan of world peace,so yeah
3 Little Birds: *refer to Dont worry Be happy*
Get Up Stand Up: yeap,stand up for ur right and dont be afraid to voice out ur disatisfaction
Jammin: i dunno..somehow it reminds of getting high..wtf am i talking abt..marley's songs are suppose to make u feel that way =P..


so i mentioned how i DONT play instruments..but when it comes to guitar solos,its the part i throw my head around like cowboy lasso-ing..slash of guns n roses being one of my fav guitar players..with his frizzy hair and top hat and cigratte..he reali looks like a walking legend..his signature 'guitar stand' pose when it comes to his solo performances act..man it reali rocked me up..and led zeppelin's stairway to heaven is my ALL-TIME favourite song..it makes me feel spiritual(dont ask me why) coz of the songs..and the solo part juz adds the kick to whole song..and Seether feat. Amy Lee is a song i would like to listen and sing along to most of the time coz the lyrics is as beautiful as Amy's voice..and its about how a guy would sacrifice for his loved one and how broken the pair is without each other's presence..btw the song name is Broken..makes u wonder why such an emo title for such a beautiful song huh?~

anyways..i noe theres alot more songs that i did not mention in this post..but if i had to write abt all the songs who made a change in me..i love my fingers to much to type them all down now hahaha..and im going off to bed yeah..approaching 4am now and im sleepy!!

cheeers yo..keep the music going and there shall be salvation to our broken feelings!

My Recall of Supernatural Encounter

So it's around 2.29am in da morning..so wut..anyways..the reason im posting this coz its at a certain extent i think it's quite interesting to read..i still remember wut happened back in 2003..and wut got me writing this is because im interested in paranormal activites so i do read alot of ghost stories..esp those of russell lee (from Native and NOT Angsana)..their 2 diff authors from diff companies..the one from Native is juz more horrific and scary la..anyways so the story begins :

Back in 2003 im a basketball freak and i play ball ever weekend in a primary skool near me..right now it is renovated and it looks bright coz all the huge ass trees has been chopped off (so much for going green)..but back in 2003 the basketball court in that skool is in da skool field..and the court is surrounded by ALOT of trees..i mind u this skool is in a 'kampung' like area but it is from my house's walking distance..i remember i called one of my neighbours to ball with me..he said yes and told me to go 1st..so thats wut i did la i juz went there 1st expceting alot of ppl to play there..but to my suprise..SO HAPPEN that no one was there..no not the regular ballers,not the regular badminton,wtf not even the punjab guard was there..the whole skool was..empty~~..

anyways i din reali care and juz went in and play la..it was during rainy season that time and trust me..5pm looks like 8pm coz the cloud was REALLY dark..when i reached i juz shoot some hoops when all of the sudden it starts to drizzle..'damn' i said to myself coz i called my neighbour and he said hes not coming coz of the drizzle..so wtf i reach adi might as well shoot somemore hoops before i make my way back..so i took this shot..hit the inner rim and bounced off to the HUGEST tree there..i mean like fuking huge..as tall as 3 storey building and branches like a goddesses's octopus hands..

so off i went to that tree..i mean i was abit freaked out la coz its like dark and this huge im approaching reali gave me a bad instinct that made my stomach turned..okay once i reached the tree i bent over and picked up the basketball and this happened

as soon as i picked up the ball,i couldnt move my limbs..hands feet all paralyzed..seriously is like locked..no matter how i wanna move it its juz still..and then i heard it..a female voice from the tree starts singing some malay sad song..i knew it was not my day adi..luki i can close my eyes coz i dont wanna noe wut i saw that day..as i close my eyes..i can clearly listen to the song she is singing..and then it keeps coming closer and closer till its like right in front of my face..my gawd i was so freaked out..but i kept closing my eyes and prayed..and all of a sudden!!..i felt a rush of 'force' thru my limbs and i notice i can move again..i picked up the ball and rushed off from that place..never to set foot inside again until today..

still im glad i din open my eyes and see wuts been singing to me that day..or not the image will definitely haunt me till today~

now who needs a horror movie when u experienced it 1st hand before =) ?

A Post Dedicated to My Homies

Yeap..for those who attended my 20th bday..u noe who u are..anyways in case if u forgot wut happened that night juz note that i got reali pissed drunk and i think Decanter Sri Hartamas will hate me for puking all over the toilet..eeeewwwwww..

anyways..this post is made to tell people that reali mattered to me in my life as in friends la..family no need say la k..ok here goes..

Nyeok - my heng dai since high skool thru balling and now is like my bro..dude i still remember ur form 1 ketua karipap hair..damn 7 yeng sui man if now u use sure can join KAPAK GANG adi..

Jo - a little dude which is neighbour and skool mate la..later went on to be frens and then become heng dai..valencia supporter..fuking lost zibai where got ppl watch la liga wan..hahaha..and im ur cupid u muhfuker when are u gonna treat me >.
Eng - oooo..this sohai..lol thats wut i said lar when i 1st met him..he memang damn zibet lala kia wan during form 1-form3..but then when he joined our gang..i tell u the change in him..incredible..right now he speaks decent english..last time reali damn hai lat man ur english..kudos to u bro..ur like one of the nicest guy to talk to coz u dont talk back..u have my back i have urs eng!

Wai Seng - lol..this is the most confusing bachelor ever..i mean like..with an attitude like him..how izzit possible he is single..EXTREMELY nice guy and joker when needed..i miss u bro the times we spent in high skool fuking around in class..

Khen Joon - Woah..tall guy model face..but u damn tau gei la..grow up la..but that wont stop me from admiting u my heng dai u zibai kia u..alwiz play dunno wut magic tricks on me wan diu~~~

Chng Tat - for short i juz call him zhen de..his nama cina mah..ahah anyways..was not reali close to him until we same class in 4d and 5d..smart guy and handsome..but hes taken la..sori ladies..and this guy learn ninjutsu..man wtf is wrong with u take knife i take gun c who win muahahaha..

Ken Iwasaki - This dude..met him thru eng..but he reali damn sarcastic at times la and also he gives me the impression of he is more than meets the eye..and love ur scotland hair shave bro..u look wicked..

OKAYS..ive juz finished telling out my high skool heng dais..moving on is post secondary (college and uni la for u zibais whos england is so the powderful wan)..is a long list..but its worth typing coz u guys reali mattered and was there when i needed u guys..

CIMP gangfrom lecturers to students..u guys rock..a few names to mention that reali made me happy whenever i go to college and i look forward of messing around with them...Naseem,Diane,Ali Ateye,Kelly,Syazzy,Teddy,Mobi,Amen,Lasha,Giorgi,Joji,Irene,Kristy and a whole lot more la..cannot type habis wan diu..

But those that reali reali reali mattered is of below..ppl who reali made the word acceptance count (fuk now i feel like im like a social outcast wtf lol)..i noe whatever i do wrong..not onli they accept it but they will change me for the better..and they all put in effort to reali get each other going..i feel like a whole big fuking family with them around..fuking around uni and also occasionally play some sports

KimHan - reali heng dai..sometimes he abit emo la but coz hes got hes own prob..cheer up boy..u got me and da gang to hold u up..ur thoughtful and kind so dun let the nex girl take advantage on u man..unless shes is doing it physically then u shuld tag along newton's law #3..

Su - OMG!..su..my daikajie..shes memang like a big sister..she can take care of the gang wan..reali thoughtful and no wonder why she is liked so much by so many of her frens..shes like willing to help all the time..and right now shes a part time baby sitter..read on and u noe..

Wai Chien - OWWWW!!..blur gal..SU'S BABY!! muahahaha..no la theyre not les or what..they are juz reali close frens and su alwiz jaga WC so well wan..kakakak..wai chien stop being so blur la..where got ppl laugh to a joke after using like 5mins to analyze and still be skeptical at wut ure laughing at..

Michie- MICHELLE WONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!..my 1st foos sifu..reali reali reali reali reali nice gal..and thru her i knew Lewis,another of the the frens that i noe i will miss,hes in australia now studying..anyways back to the sell chicken king..she is very adorable when she screws up coz she'll make all kind of funny noises..notably her signature high pitch girly 'nooooooooooooo'..hahaha..and she reali noes how to cure a broken heart coz she is willing to keng sum si and open up ur mind..and shes a good girl fooser..did i mention that already..well wtf screw it i dun mind telling the world twice abt it..

Hong Nien - ini abang johor mari hokkien lang ah!!..hahahah..cool dude..he is damn yeng lor.no doubt that he can be the nex casanova la..alwiz so yeng and noe how 2 ambil girls heart..including tan teng teng!!

Grace (teng teng) - super duper nice gal..but too nice is bad la teng teng..sometimes u muz be selfish wan u noe..u muz remember elephant oso muz noe how 2 care for themselves not go and give ppl free ride onli..teng teng ure a reali nice gal and im sure whoever who noes u will feel the same way like i do..teng teng the super helper..

actually..i now damn sian adi lor type type type until..but i wont leave the copot out wan..u guys are great peeps to hang around with and to chill out with..

COPOT remainders besides those mentioned above

~galuh,efa,hendra,agus,nadia(mish u la nadia y u go back indon),chee chan.kim halim~

and some of uni frens such as the MUSA peeps and also individuals such as simran and lee huey sun!!!!

So basically all those i mentioned above juz now..ive already pretty said much for now..coz its like 3.19am and im fuking sleepy..damn im gonna hang my head on my pillow like a hangman's noose yo..

cheers peeps~~

Morning Insomniac

its kinda like 2.28 am

and all of a sudden i feel like blogging lol..coz i aint feel like sleeping nor i have anything to do..might as well type smth and let ppl to read..if theres any..

anyways today..or yesterday i suppose..was kinda boring la..but ill juz tell u what happened

Woke up at 7plus in da morning and then went to uni with my bro..actually juz drop him there and then ciao to the gym adn work out..WOAH I SAW ONE DAMN HOT CHICK WEI INSIDE!!..but its not like i reali care now..i was doing my chest la thru out the day..

ok then i left at around 9++ and then balik uni!!..woah went there and foos onli la..reali damn fuking sian man me reali like no life liddat..is either foos or eat or sleep or play..sian..but still..i like foosing and seems like im getting better at it so its sort of like and achievement la..AND YEAH..i wanna thank Kim Han( one of the uni heng dais..actually not onli uni..evrytime oso heng dai ;P)..coz he FINALLY gave me my bday prezzie..its nth much..but its reali thoughtful coz he gave me a set of grips so i can use for foosing..

then foos foos foos till 2pm and then went for my e-biz lecture..mahai damn 9 lost man me..but luki the lecturer very nice guy la..explained nicely and stuff so kudos to u Mr.Halloran..and stop doing the diu kai sign (use ur palm and slap on the top of the fist)..he din noe it is equalvalent to middle finger in m'sia..so whenever he did it me and joseph will keep laughing wuakakaakka..

okie dokie..left class at around 5pm..started to rain like anjing kucing..reali pissing down on poor souls like me..but when reach home stop adi..so quickly i finished offf my friday chores and went to play basketball..played with one the black guys there..hes like fuking awesome man..but still im quite dissapointed with other players coz they all like reluctant to play with me..okays nvm fuk them..i play with the black guy la since he so keng and he can probably teach me new stuffs :P..

then went back home dinner..due to the fact that it was raining..and i juz finish showering..kesan penyejatan was damn slow..so it took like damn fuking long for me to dry up from showering and its hot like shyt..then habis dinner..tot wanna go 1utama wan with someone..but then shes having wedding dinner and i guess shes juz busy la and to call her to rush to a muvee juz seems senseless..end up going foos with michie (michelle)..shes my uni fren i met last year and i felt like damn close to her even thouhg i met her onli a few days..shes a great fren and i noe she is someone i can rely on if i need a good pair of ears and a good foosball backman ;p..

okays ..reach home at around 2.00am..and blog la..wuakkaaka..ima go sleep now or mayb i juz feel like starting another lame topic on my blog..depends on my mood and how willing my eyes are willing to remain awake..cheers!

Finally

Finally ive started blogging..

after visiting countless blogs of my friends,notably Yoong but i seldom leave any comments cause i juz like to know whats been going on in my friends life and also to know how their doing and stuffs..

HOWEVER..theres is a few things that i would note to u readers what to expect from my blog yeah:

- typos
-profanity
-sincere thoughts
-current happenings
-nothing much from my everyday life

Right now is like 4.14 pm and still im kinda lazy to start writing my 1st post except for this thing here.Look like is fuking gonna rain again..sian..no basketball this evening and time to snuggle up in my bed again and snooze till dinner time..wtf..feel so damn useless currently

anyways..by the time u read i think u will know that ive finally blogged and keep coming back in da future and stalk me in my coming life..peace out peeps